Attained Nirvana...

They always say it'll be better ad finem, but it only gets worse.

They say it's going to be easy, but it only turns hard.

They tell you you can recover, but it's always a black hole.
They tell you you can survive, and you always do.
Because when you think you can't, you've got to
Pick up your Crazy Heart and Give it One More Try
'Coz This Ain't No Place for the Weary Kind...!!

And that's what got my blog here... I've been trying ultra hard since over 3 months to get people to read my whine-about-my-life blog...! I even tried changing templates(which I failed miserably at)

I asked my blog-buddy Asif... He racked his brains over the mail trying to get me to understand all the html,xml stuff.. But things were just too adamant to enter my pea-sized brain...!!!

And finally, I don't know how, things fell in place as if I'd solved a big jig-saw puzzle... Now, that'd been much more of a cinch!

Thank you Asif for all the trouble I made you go through... I'm just too glad I DID IT!!!!!!

Dear Shoes, Contrary to what you feel, I really do love you.

This post is solely dedicated to my love lust for shoes...
Because if the world were a tuxedo, you wouldn't want to wear brown shoes.. :P
It's not like i own a 100 pairs of shoes (maybe 40 odd).
But there is nothing I always want to buy like a good pair of shoes.
The problem is that I am a rational human being and i always thing along the lines of, "How can I walk all over something worth so much money!?"
Which is exactly why i insist that rationality sucks.
But all this has planted one idea in my mind.
The day I can buy a pair of Jimmy Choos without feeling any guilt whatsoever and wear them in the trashiest manner, I will know that I have made it.
*gulp*, Just look at these beauties

FRESHERS Vs. SOPHOMORES

So,
its been over a month now in college (read: GEEK LAND, i'll explain- m surrounded by geeks who by choice spend 8-9 extra hours in library and skip lunch to do so)
so where was I?
Aha!
Its been a month... and anything if I've learnt is, YOU DON'T WANT TO MESS WITH UR SOPHOMORES! with your egomaniacal, narcissistic sophomores!


There is a stereotypical belief in the college that the seniors think they are a bunch of Big Headed, Ambitious, Arrogant people who think they're intellectually superior to you. IT'S TRUE. ITS VERY VERY TRUE.
Thanx to the seniors, I did so much in the last few weeks... let me give you an IDEA.. (and that's all m giving)
if a senior chooses to take responsibility and act "professional",,, they must learn to take criticism also bona fide! it's really stupid!
And when a fresher criticizes, its disrespectful to the seniors... like c'mon! what world are we in.... 200BC?????????
we have some real dumb-fuck sophomores whom we have to deal with for the coming years... 
Bright side of such seniors -- they teach us to watch our back when we walk.. cus THEY are waiting to stab it!!! and in a law college as small a community as mine where reputations stick with you for your entire life, it's such sophomores that make it worth DYING!!! 


DOWN WITH SUCH SOPHOMORES ^#$%&**^!! 

Cheers to a New life!

So I realized, I am having a lot of new-s in my life - New college, New room, New laptop, JUST EVERYTHING NEW!
The excitement that I had for new college all through summer is now turning to anxiety, I must say, quite rather fast!!!
Now, I have heard and I am going to let out guys in for some real juicy gossips... NAMELESS of course!
We have -
1) Teachers who are so good they fail you for being mediocre
2) Teaches who are so in their zone, they mumble.
3) Friends of friends who tell them not to trust anyone!
4) Teachers who pass you for wearing low neck-lines!
5) all the bullshit in the world wide universe!!!!
 phew!

I am scaring myself even more!
oh and there is stereotypical belief too about this college...

The students at this college are all a bunch of "Big Headed, Ambitious, Arrogant people who think they're intellectually superior" to you.
Its true.
Its very very true.

I guess i'll sign out... Try to deviate my mind... tomorrow is my orientation session... So, m gonna have another interesting blog again! :-D

PS: to end on a funny not, someone told me,

"Bihar is not a state, It's a state of mind.".... have your laugh!

New-fangled

They say its never too late to start out something new!
Well, keeping that in mind, I am making a new mid-year resolution...
I am going to try very hard not to make this blog personal and a come-hear-me-cry type and ya, even pitiable!

Sincere Apologies

I know I know I know. I said I'd be away only a week. It's not my fault my weeks are longer than the normal 7 days! 

So much for a valid excuse! 

Well, to my few readers out there... 

I am suffering severe chest infection and Pneumonia(yes karan, Pneumonia with a 'P') and hence have not been able to write... (nor think!!)

I know I promised to try not to rant on the blog. But it's not me who's ranting right now. It's a frustrated-kidult(thanks for the word, sid)-who-celebrated-her-18th-birthday-in-bed girl who's not stepped out of the house since more than 45 days!

Ok, well, that is not exactly true. I have had my fair share of visits to the hospitals and clinics around the city. 

But baby, there's more to it!

Like, your mother gets you breakfast in bed. Or exploring your bed and its super-comfortable corners or the corners that give you bad dreams! Aah! 

Like your sister(bossy and elder) is at your beck and call EVERYTIME you need absolutely ANYTHING.

Like your father is super-ultra-far of sad for you just because you couldn't celebrate your adulthood! And so gets you a new laptop and an Ipod to enjoy in bed! + a debit card! YIPEE!

I mean don't get me wrong.

I am not saying it's a great thing if it goes on for too long, because then the silence will just eat you up and your mind will become unproductive and you'll probably end up thinking of all the bad things in the world. But when you've gone through a really fast life for over 2 months, this is just sheer blessing! It feels G.R.E.A.T.

I mean this is what I do-

• Slept
• Slept some more
• Ate
• Snacked ;)
• Explored the lappy and Ipod
• Slept 

THE JOYS OF NOTHING.

But I am now really frustrated and wanting to get out. Not to a particular destination. Just get out of this room! I want to meet my friends and hang out and do "nothing". But I want to do "nothing" outside! I hope I get well soon...!

Leaving on a jet plane,

don't know when i'll be back again

-Niyati.

Out of Service........... AGAIN!

Sorry but Niyati will not be blogging for the couple of days to come as she's down with pneumonia!

And shes searching for some human blood she can suck!

Cho Cho Appy!

Hey guys... I know you missed me. humne bhi aapko bada miss kiya... lol. The IPL3 seriously grows on you.
Well,
here's the good news. I AM SO OVER MY EX BOYFRIEND! And totally totally happy with my specials around me all the time! Like my bestfriends Bhagyashree and Nikunj ;) They understand me so well. And know exactly how to tickle my funny bone! I love them to death! :D
I don't have anything to blog about except that I am totally in love with life right now...!

Your Voice + My Ears = NIRVANA!!!!

Ok, so it's hitting me hard now. I miss him. A LOT!

I tried to be strong, mature and understanding... WELL, TO HELL WITH ALL THAT!

My nights are lonely. I hate it when the clock strikes 11pm because that's when I used to call you up and now all I do is sit in the bathroom and cry. I tried. For good 14 days I tried to be strong. But it just hit me like John Travolta's FINAL AIM in Pulp Fiction. It nailed me right into the head, when I was busy writing my OCM paper. I blacked out. That was a first in my life. I had never experienced that. Well, I wouldn't even want to... And so I couldn't write a word... Had to leave attempting only 85%...

But that don't bother me!
I am lost without him. I have no clue how am I going to survive in this big bad world without him by my side. I was in paradise when with him. And now it's just a crappy life that I'm struggling to live!
He doesn't know how magical his voice was(is!) He doesnt know how I could sail through storms(quite literally) if I get to hear his voice alone. How I could muster up my courage to face any damn thing on earth if I could hear his magical and filled-with-love-only-for-me voice!
But like I said earlier, Am not exactly in paradise! But I realised, his voice is not the only thing I long for... I am craving for the whole of HIM... Before him, I didnt even know I could love someone so much and could get THIS ATTACHED! Like nah nah! And my father always taught me, "be loyal, not attached".. How I wish I would have just heard that! I wouldn't have to bear the I-told-you-so look... :'(
But now, I have decided.. I am not going to cry over the past and wait for him. I am going to smile at the future and wait for him...(waiting is invariable)
Now now... Everyone knows how instinctive I have become... Since when did Niyati start planning and deciding......
So she hears all kinds of break up songs- old/new/hindi/english/fast rock/slow rom... all kinds!
Some of them are-

1) Piya basanti re
kahe sataye
aaja!

2) Aaj din chadheya..
(this one I could write the whole song)

3) (I have listed this one in an earlier post)
    Flames to dust
   Lovers to friends,
  Why do all good things come to an end?

4) dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jate hai
beete lamhein humein jabhi yaad aate hai

5) Bhool ja jo hua use,
Muskura, ae kasam tujhe
Khud ko yu na de tu saza....

6) Big girls don't cry!

7) Why did you have to go
and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting 
like you're somebody else
gets me frustrated

8) I hate that I love you so much!

9) Sau dard *feels like crying again*

---- And as usual... the list goes on...!!
To You,

I LOVE YOU.

Dil se na jati hai

yaadein tumhari,

kaise tum bin jee na...

Aankhon mein tu hain

saanson mein tu hai

aankhein band kar lo 

toh man mein bhi tu hai.

Chuke yu chali hawa,
jaise chu gaye ho tum
phool jo khile They woh
shool ban gaye hai kyu
jee raha hu isliye,
dil mein pyar hai tera
zulm seh raha hu kyu,
intezaar hai tera,
tumse mile bina jaan bhi na jaayegi!

Oh I could write the whole song...
So I'm going to shut up now... sit and cry for sometime...
signing off for a long time!

-Niyati S.

I Wasted A Lot Of Time Liking you!

So here I am! Dumped and single. After a 5 year old relationship!
But I am not sad, I am not crying and I am definitely not trying to commit suicide(I don't know how people/cowards manage to do that!)
I am happy. I can see my mirror smiling after many days. I got a new lease of life. A new life! Cheers to a brand new life!
I have always been in a relationship(with the same guy... :P) since I started understanding life and other such jokes. So being single is something very new to me!
But that doesn't mean I don't have a broken heart. of course I do! I miss him right now even thought it's just a night that has passed since the break up.

And then there are break up song that are WRITTEN ONLY FOR ME.
Some of them that are so much like the situation I am going through are:

1) What hurts the most,
was being so close.
and having so much to say,
Am watching you walk away....
-By Rascal Flatts.

2) I tried to be perfect,
but nothing was worth it.
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy,
But no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said


If you believe it's in my soul,
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show,
that I'm trying to let you know
I'm better off on my own!
-By Sum 41

3) You held my hand,
you walked me home. I know.
why you gave that kiss, it was something like this.
It made me go oh-oh!
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears,
why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love,
GUYS ARE SO HARD TO TRUST!
-By Avril Lavigne

4) Flames to dust,
lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
-By Nelly furtado

And the list goes on...
And the love flies away...

Blog block!

kkk...So now i am in no mood for a RED change... i am feeling blue... (ya,,, the mood AND the color)

or wait, i feel something very vibrant will do just fine... i am not confused.. i m just thinking out loud. i seriously am nt confused. ok am i?
no i am not... i definitely m not... or may b i just am... i think i am... kkkk AM I CONFUSED????

i forgot the start point... i forgot what we were talking about... well this is what happens with me ALL THE TIME... some random thoughts deviate me from the point of discussion...
i know not what m i doing here... when exactly i have my boards on... AND i don't even have anything to talk about.../write about!
i think i have become just creatively handicapped or i m down with what they call "the writer's block syndrome",... because for the 1st time I JUST COULDN'T THINK (CREATIVELY) in the writing skills section of my english paper...(m sure there are metric tonnes of people laughing and snickering and hooting at me at this moment... but i don't really care!
This was just like when I was 5... ya 5!(i was cute than.. :D :P)
I went to eliphanta caves[i hope i spelled/spelt(i knw nt d difference) it right]
And being hyperactive, i was sure and confident I could give the monkeys a serious competition...And i was drinking frooty(oh! the drink i lived for!) and in a fraction of a second it was GONE! I was too flabbergasted to try to know what happened.... and then my parents were ridiculing me 'COS the monkeys snatched my frooty.. n i didnt know what do except to stand there and look like a fool! ya i had MAJOR INFERIORITY COMPLEX back then... i meant when i was 5... :$

So ya,,, this is what happened today too... I was much surprised at myself fo not having to write... but then i guess it happens to all of them.....!! so much for self-satisfaction!! :D

I don't know what point i made with this post... but i hope my readers had a good time(insanely laughing at me)

-Niyati! फिर मिलेंगे!

Help Wanted.... :$

Sometimes, Niyati blogs twice in a day.
That's when the readers who keep coming back to her blog, hit the jackpot!
this is one of those times. :)
But this isn't that meaningful...
Its just me making pathetic attempts at getting people to read my blog again... :(
I really want help from the left readers that i have!
-I am wanting to change my blogger template.. AND I JUST CANT DO THAT!
now, you know how naive i am at all this... you could even call me blonde!
i really want something up and beating for my blog.. m really tired of looking at my own BORING WHITE blog... i want something red... like the nailpaint I put...(yeah yeah,,,, now dun giv a *raised eyebrows* look... u must knw, change is d nly constant... hw better cn i explain it than dis post???? :D)
I want something in the exact shade of red that i put up in the image ABOVE(this time i knew why to use capitalization, i have 2 red pics! :D )... PLEASE HELP...
any other color suggestions are more than welcome.... remember, something UP AND BEATING!

You know U hav turned insane, when.....

1) You have a BIG TIME CRUSH on your bestfriend's brother!

(all this after you flushed your chances to meet him in a different country all by yourself!)

2) There's no taste in maa ka khana or no satisfaction in behen ke saath ladai!

3) You know you screwed up the whole year(academically) and don't do anything about it.

4) You write the same sentence after every few lines in a full length economics paper. AND you still don't know what you're answering!

5) You suddenly decide to have a wardrobe change(when you have a boyf who's in love with you CUS you're different!)

6) You suck in all the mindless gossip possible in the world and keep thinking/talking about it all day long!

7) You cry a lottttttttt only because you havent met ur best friend for a long time and are not going to meet them for another long time! :(

8) You're super excited cuz suddenly you meet a friend of a friend(Who's now your friend too... :S), and you think SHE'S your super twin!

9) And ASSUME that you guys are actually twins, you just got separated in the lokhandwala shopping festival that happened long time ago and your CURRENT mother took pity on you and adopted you FROM A SHOPPING FESTIVAL!!!!! *lame joke*--- she shopped for you from a shopping fest!

10) Your phone is one form the stone-age and you don't want to change it cus you're ATTACHED to it...

11) You know you have screwed your 12th, and again just knowing you're not going to get thru those entrance tests... AND YET BEING SUPER COOL!

12) You sleep early, get up nearly afternoon, and HAVE to sleep after lunch, and you call yourself SLEEP-DEPRIVED!

13) YOU USE CAPITALIZATION, ONLY CUZ YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IT(OH SO MUCH TO BE CALLED SMART!), ANYWHERE AND EVERYWHERE!

14) You boast about something you havent even done, AND DON'T EVEN KNOW ABOUT!

15) You know you are jacked, but are hurt cuz one of your relatives called you a loser! how could he man?

16) You come up with a decent blog post about ABSOLUTELY NOTHING

17) You read this post and say smilingly, "oh damn! ya that happens 2 me too!"

If yes, felicitations! you're a certified insane now!

join the club! (well, there isn't one... but i m sure i wil have to open 1 soon cuz m going to get lot of lunatic and psychotic and neurotic....... (and d synonyms follow).... people around!

till then,

lazing off... cus u know, i am SLEEP DEPRIVED ;)

-Niyati!

Find Me Another ME

I haven't cropped my hair lately...
My lips have never had a taste of lipstick.
My piercing shines when i wake up in the morning and shoot a look at the mirror.
My eyes haven't seen a day minus the kohl.
I have never applied make-up and nor have I soaked my hair in perfume.
I wear tee's that are more-comfy-less-controversial.
They'r all from sales. Sales. Heaven.
I break into a jig everytime I miraculously discover crumpled notes stuffed in my pockets. Seldom that is. 5, 10, 20, 50, 100, anything is fine.
My pants still got paint stains on them...from some godforsaken college festival.
My slippers have hearts on them.
My bag is a faithful cotton one from a dessert land. I got friends who bargained for it.
I know not what heels, cocktail dresses, tube, tank tops, frills, stockings, push-up-brassieres are.
I am usually too engrossed hunting for cotton tees. Oversized. Better. Love.
I grab at everything man-ish and jerky willingly.
I wear pink when my mom needs people to notice her 'daughter'.
I do socialize but never ever click bazillion pictures of myself and my friends.
I know the difference between 'luv u' and 'I love you'.
My cell phone is from the stone-age.
And no, I don't name my cell-phone, my bag, my computer, my mug.
And Yes, I can watch the "swayamwars" and not mind the torture.
I watch movies that are pure tacky-ness. I love them. I watch them on every Sunday. Usually all alone. I am a sucker for tacky movies and food.
I smile at random aunties on the road
I once told my babysitter that we drink cat's blood in our family. Every day.
I have lived in Bombay all my fucking life and I think thats the best thing about me.
I love this city.
I love Bombay.
Find me another Me...

This Blog Is TEMPORARILY OUT OF SERVICE!

when I started blogging again, i made it a point to post every 2 days... i got myself hard copies of my old articles and started typing 'em... i thought may be when 2010 starts and i hav my boards, i'l continue blogging.. little did i know that HSC boards not only suck the happiness out of you, they also suck out the little traces of life left in you!

so i guess i have to be back AFTER my boards when i actually have something to write about apart from exams and prelims 'cos i think that is what i keep babbling these days....!!

Allow me to sign off for a really long time!

Apologies,

Niyati.

International Rules Of Womanhood!

well,

i was bored... make that bored to death! and thought about this,

So i wrote this!

1) It is mandatory that you check out every girl walking on the street who is at least a tad bit hot.
It is also acceptable to tell the man you're walking with, "She's HOT" till she can't hear you,

2) After complimenting another woman, it is permitted that you turn around and bitch about her to your best friend.

3) You shall never go to the washroom without at least one other girlfriend from your group.

4) All women find other women hot and have small crushes on them. Especially if the other woman is Julia Roberts or Penelope Cruz. Its genetic.

5) You don't think logically when you're crying or upset or annoyed. That's like asking Navjot Singh Sidhu to never use idioms.

6) It is okay if you can't use a piece of technology after reading the ENTIRE instruction manual. It's perfectly normal.

7) Retail therapy works. If you claim otherwise, you're lying.

8) It is okay if you cry under ANY and ALL circumstances. It's allowed.

9) You must remember the birthdays and anniversaries of all your friends. If you forget your girlfriends first date anniversary you may be ignored for 6 months.

10) When you comprehend "men like girls with a sense of humour" as you should crack jokes, it is at your own risk. More often than not, it means- "She should laugh at all my jokes".
Also, laugh at a man at your own peril.

11) You can fantasize about Daniel Craig or want Hugh Jackman to take off his shirt in a movie forever. The guy cannot watch Beyonce dance on TV.

12) When splitting a bill when you're out with girls, you may use your calculator and still not know who must pay how much.

13)If you drop your friends as soon as you get a boyfriend, you will live to regret your decision.

14) Your best friend's brother, boyfriend, ex-boyfriend, love interest, ex- love interest is immediately off limits.

15) You always make the rules. You always win. You can change the rules at your discretion.
16) You know the guy will always want to watch ESPN. But you're ALWAYS allowed to whine about it even if you want to watch it too. If only to trouble him.

17) You don't fight with a man over the directions to the place you're going to. Especially if you're interested in him.

18) When you're fighting with your boyfriend, you can bring up something hurtful he said six months ago. Even if you know he didn't mean it and he has forgotten he ever said it.

19) Even if you love Bipasha's new Bob or Mandira Bedi's new Pixie hairdo, you don't cut your hair. Apparently, Men crib about it. They don't understand fashion.

20) Even if you want to win all the time, if it's something he's passionate about, let him win. It has greater benefits.
21) The man is expected to read the woman's mind. You must not tell him why you're upset at him. Are you crazy?

22) If you become predictable, you change. The guy can never know all the rules.

23) You never have enough clothes. Or enough shoes.

24) Don't say you like the action movie you just watched even if you did. You'll never be taken out for a romantic comedy again.

25) If you're a girl. You're a gossip. Its genetic.

At 12.00am on January 1, 2010

i feel so low, i'm underground;

evertime you're not around!

i try to sing but there's no sound;

when you're not around! :'(