New-fangled

They say its never too late to start out something new!
Well, keeping that in mind, I am making a new mid-year resolution...
I am going to try very hard not to make this blog personal and a come-hear-me-cry type and ya, even pitiable!

Sincere Apologies

I know I know I know. I said I'd be away only a week. It's not my fault my weeks are longer than the normal 7 days! 

So much for a valid excuse! 

Well, to my few readers out there... 

I am suffering severe chest infection and Pneumonia(yes karan, Pneumonia with a 'P') and hence have not been able to write... (nor think!!)

I know I promised to try not to rant on the blog. But it's not me who's ranting right now. It's a frustrated-kidult(thanks for the word, sid)-who-celebrated-her-18th-birthday-in-bed girl who's not stepped out of the house since more than 45 days!

Ok, well, that is not exactly true. I have had my fair share of visits to the hospitals and clinics around the city. 

But baby, there's more to it!

Like, your mother gets you breakfast in bed. Or exploring your bed and its super-comfortable corners or the corners that give you bad dreams! Aah! 

Like your sister(bossy and elder) is at your beck and call EVERYTIME you need absolutely ANYTHING.

Like your father is super-ultra-far of sad for you just because you couldn't celebrate your adulthood! And so gets you a new laptop and an Ipod to enjoy in bed! + a debit card! YIPEE!

I mean don't get me wrong.

I am not saying it's a great thing if it goes on for too long, because then the silence will just eat you up and your mind will become unproductive and you'll probably end up thinking of all the bad things in the world. But when you've gone through a really fast life for over 2 months, this is just sheer blessing! It feels G.R.E.A.T.

I mean this is what I do-

• Slept
• Slept some more
• Ate
• Snacked ;)
• Explored the lappy and Ipod
• Slept 

THE JOYS OF NOTHING.

But I am now really frustrated and wanting to get out. Not to a particular destination. Just get out of this room! I want to meet my friends and hang out and do "nothing". But I want to do "nothing" outside! I hope I get well soon...!

Leaving on a jet plane,

don't know when i'll be back again

-Niyati.

Out of Service........... AGAIN!

Sorry but Niyati will not be blogging for the couple of days to come as she's down with pneumonia!

And shes searching for some human blood she can suck!

Cho Cho Appy!

Hey guys... I know you missed me. humne bhi aapko bada miss kiya... lol. The IPL3 seriously grows on you.
Well,
here's the good news. I AM SO OVER MY EX BOYFRIEND! And totally totally happy with my specials around me all the time! Like my bestfriends Bhagyashree and Nikunj ;) They understand me so well. And know exactly how to tickle my funny bone! I love them to death! :D
I don't have anything to blog about except that I am totally in love with life right now...!

Your Voice + My Ears = NIRVANA!!!!

Ok, so it's hitting me hard now. I miss him. A LOT!

I tried to be strong, mature and understanding... WELL, TO HELL WITH ALL THAT!

My nights are lonely. I hate it when the clock strikes 11pm because that's when I used to call you up and now all I do is sit in the bathroom and cry. I tried. For good 14 days I tried to be strong. But it just hit me like John Travolta's FINAL AIM in Pulp Fiction. It nailed me right into the head, when I was busy writing my OCM paper. I blacked out. That was a first in my life. I had never experienced that. Well, I wouldn't even want to... And so I couldn't write a word... Had to leave attempting only 85%...

But that don't bother me!
I am lost without him. I have no clue how am I going to survive in this big bad world without him by my side. I was in paradise when with him. And now it's just a crappy life that I'm struggling to live!
He doesn't know how magical his voice was(is!) He doesnt know how I could sail through storms(quite literally) if I get to hear his voice alone. How I could muster up my courage to face any damn thing on earth if I could hear his magical and filled-with-love-only-for-me voice!
But like I said earlier, Am not exactly in paradise! But I realised, his voice is not the only thing I long for... I am craving for the whole of HIM... Before him, I didnt even know I could love someone so much and could get THIS ATTACHED! Like nah nah! And my father always taught me, "be loyal, not attached".. How I wish I would have just heard that! I wouldn't have to bear the I-told-you-so look... :'(
But now, I have decided.. I am not going to cry over the past and wait for him. I am going to smile at the future and wait for him...(waiting is invariable)
Now now... Everyone knows how instinctive I have become... Since when did Niyati start planning and deciding......
So she hears all kinds of break up songs- old/new/hindi/english/fast rock/slow rom... all kinds!
Some of them are-

1) Piya basanti re
kahe sataye
aaja!

2) Aaj din chadheya..
(this one I could write the whole song)

3) (I have listed this one in an earlier post)
    Flames to dust
   Lovers to friends,
  Why do all good things come to an end?

4) dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jate hai
beete lamhein humein jabhi yaad aate hai

5) Bhool ja jo hua use,
Muskura, ae kasam tujhe
Khud ko yu na de tu saza....

6) Big girls don't cry!

7) Why did you have to go
and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting 
like you're somebody else
gets me frustrated

8) I hate that I love you so much!

9) Sau dard *feels like crying again*

---- And as usual... the list goes on...!!
To You,

I LOVE YOU.

Dil se na jati hai

yaadein tumhari,

kaise tum bin jee na...

Aankhon mein tu hain

saanson mein tu hai

aankhein band kar lo 

toh man mein bhi tu hai.

Chuke yu chali hawa,
jaise chu gaye ho tum
phool jo khile They woh
shool ban gaye hai kyu
jee raha hu isliye,
dil mein pyar hai tera
zulm seh raha hu kyu,
intezaar hai tera,
tumse mile bina jaan bhi na jaayegi!

Oh I could write the whole song...
So I'm going to shut up now... sit and cry for sometime...
signing off for a long time!

-Niyati S.