Your Voice + My Ears = NIRVANA!!!!

Ok, so it's hitting me hard now. I miss him. A LOT!

I tried to be strong, mature and understanding... WELL, TO HELL WITH ALL THAT!

My nights are lonely. I hate it when the clock strikes 11pm because that's when I used to call you up and now all I do is sit in the bathroom and cry. I tried. For good 14 days I tried to be strong. But it just hit me like John Travolta's FINAL AIM in Pulp Fiction. It nailed me right into the head, when I was busy writing my OCM paper. I blacked out. That was a first in my life. I had never experienced that. Well, I wouldn't even want to... And so I couldn't write a word... Had to leave attempting only 85%...

But that don't bother me!
I am lost without him. I have no clue how am I going to survive in this big bad world without him by my side. I was in paradise when with him. And now it's just a crappy life that I'm struggling to live!
He doesn't know how magical his voice was(is!) He doesnt know how I could sail through storms(quite literally) if I get to hear his voice alone. How I could muster up my courage to face any damn thing on earth if I could hear his magical and filled-with-love-only-for-me voice!
But like I said earlier, Am not exactly in paradise! But I realised, his voice is not the only thing I long for... I am craving for the whole of HIM... Before him, I didnt even know I could love someone so much and could get THIS ATTACHED! Like nah nah! And my father always taught me, "be loyal, not attached".. How I wish I would have just heard that! I wouldn't have to bear the I-told-you-so look... :'(
But now, I have decided.. I am not going to cry over the past and wait for him. I am going to smile at the future and wait for him...(waiting is invariable)
Now now... Everyone knows how instinctive I have become... Since when did Niyati start planning and deciding......
So she hears all kinds of break up songs- old/new/hindi/english/fast rock/slow rom... all kinds!
Some of them are-

1) Piya basanti re
kahe sataye
aaja!

2) Aaj din chadheya..
(this one I could write the whole song)

3) (I have listed this one in an earlier post)
    Flames to dust
   Lovers to friends,
  Why do all good things come to an end?

4) dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jate hai
beete lamhein humein jabhi yaad aate hai

5) Bhool ja jo hua use,
Muskura, ae kasam tujhe
Khud ko yu na de tu saza....

6) Big girls don't cry!

7) Why did you have to go
and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting 
like you're somebody else
gets me frustrated

8) I hate that I love you so much!

9) Sau dard *feels like crying again*

---- And as usual... the list goes on...!!
To You,

I LOVE YOU.

Dil se na jati hai

yaadein tumhari,

kaise tum bin jee na...

Aankhon mein tu hain

saanson mein tu hai

aankhein band kar lo 

toh man mein bhi tu hai.

Chuke yu chali hawa,
jaise chu gaye ho tum
phool jo khile They woh
shool ban gaye hai kyu
jee raha hu isliye,
dil mein pyar hai tera
zulm seh raha hu kyu,
intezaar hai tera,
tumse mile bina jaan bhi na jaayegi!

Oh I could write the whole song...
So I'm going to shut up now... sit and cry for sometime...
signing off for a long time!

-Niyati S.

I Wasted A Lot Of Time Liking you!

So here I am! Dumped and single. After a 5 year old relationship!
But I am not sad, I am not crying and I am definitely not trying to commit suicide(I don't know how people/cowards manage to do that!)
I am happy. I can see my mirror smiling after many days. I got a new lease of life. A new life! Cheers to a brand new life!
I have always been in a relationship(with the same guy... :P) since I started understanding life and other such jokes. So being single is something very new to me!
But that doesn't mean I don't have a broken heart. of course I do! I miss him right now even thought it's just a night that has passed since the break up.

And then there are break up song that are WRITTEN ONLY FOR ME.
Some of them that are so much like the situation I am going through are:

1) What hurts the most,
was being so close.
and having so much to say,
Am watching you walk away....
-By Rascal Flatts.

2) I tried to be perfect,
but nothing was worth it.
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy,
But no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said


If you believe it's in my soul,
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show,
that I'm trying to let you know
I'm better off on my own!
-By Sum 41

3) You held my hand,
you walked me home. I know.
why you gave that kiss, it was something like this.
It made me go oh-oh!
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears,
why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love,
GUYS ARE SO HARD TO TRUST!
-By Avril Lavigne

4) Flames to dust,
lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
-By Nelly furtado

And the list goes on...
And the love flies away...

Blog block!

kkk...So now i am in no mood for a RED change... i am feeling blue... (ya,,, the mood AND the color)

or wait, i feel something very vibrant will do just fine... i am not confused.. i m just thinking out loud. i seriously am nt confused. ok am i?
no i am not... i definitely m not... or may b i just am... i think i am... kkkk AM I CONFUSED????

i forgot the start point... i forgot what we were talking about... well this is what happens with me ALL THE TIME... some random thoughts deviate me from the point of discussion...
i know not what m i doing here... when exactly i have my boards on... AND i don't even have anything to talk about.../write about!
i think i have become just creatively handicapped or i m down with what they call "the writer's block syndrome",... because for the 1st time I JUST COULDN'T THINK (CREATIVELY) in the writing skills section of my english paper...(m sure there are metric tonnes of people laughing and snickering and hooting at me at this moment... but i don't really care!
This was just like when I was 5... ya 5!(i was cute than.. :D :P)
I went to eliphanta caves[i hope i spelled/spelt(i knw nt d difference) it right]
And being hyperactive, i was sure and confident I could give the monkeys a serious competition...And i was drinking frooty(oh! the drink i lived for!) and in a fraction of a second it was GONE! I was too flabbergasted to try to know what happened.... and then my parents were ridiculing me 'COS the monkeys snatched my frooty.. n i didnt know what do except to stand there and look like a fool! ya i had MAJOR INFERIORITY COMPLEX back then... i meant when i was 5... :$

So ya,,, this is what happened today too... I was much surprised at myself fo not having to write... but then i guess it happens to all of them.....!! so much for self-satisfaction!! :D

I don't know what point i made with this post... but i hope my readers had a good time(insanely laughing at me)

-Niyati! फिर मिलेंगे!

Help Wanted.... :$

Sometimes, Niyati blogs twice in a day.
That's when the readers who keep coming back to her blog, hit the jackpot!
this is one of those times. :)
But this isn't that meaningful...
Its just me making pathetic attempts at getting people to read my blog again... :(
I really want help from the left readers that i have!
-I am wanting to change my blogger template.. AND I JUST CANT DO THAT!
now, you know how naive i am at all this... you could even call me blonde!
i really want something up and beating for my blog.. m really tired of looking at my own BORING WHITE blog... i want something red... like the nailpaint I put...(yeah yeah,,,, now dun giv a *raised eyebrows* look... u must knw, change is d nly constant... hw better cn i explain it than dis post???? :D)
I want something in the exact shade of red that i put up in the image ABOVE(this time i knew why to use capitalization, i have 2 red pics! :D )... PLEASE HELP...
any other color suggestions are more than welcome.... remember, something UP AND BEATING!

You know U hav turned insane, when.....

1) You have a BIG TIME CRUSH on your bestfriend's brother!

(all this after you flushed your chances to meet him in a different country all by yourself!)

2) There's no taste in maa ka khana or no satisfaction in behen ke saath ladai!

3) You know you screwed up the whole year(academically) and don't do anything about it.

4) You write the same sentence after every few lines in a full length economics paper. AND you still don't know what you're answering!

5) You suddenly decide to have a wardrobe change(when you have a boyf who's in love with you CUS you're different!)

6) You suck in all the mindless gossip possible in the world and keep thinking/talking about it all day long!

7) You cry a lottttttttt only because you havent met ur best friend for a long time and are not going to meet them for another long time! :(

8) You're super excited cuz suddenly you meet a friend of a friend(Who's now your friend too... :S), and you think SHE'S your super twin!

9) And ASSUME that you guys are actually twins, you just got separated in the lokhandwala shopping festival that happened long time ago and your CURRENT mother took pity on you and adopted you FROM A SHOPPING FESTIVAL!!!!! *lame joke*--- she shopped for you from a shopping fest!

10) Your phone is one form the stone-age and you don't want to change it cus you're ATTACHED to it...

11) You know you have screwed your 12th, and again just knowing you're not going to get thru those entrance tests... AND YET BEING SUPER COOL!

12) You sleep early, get up nearly afternoon, and HAVE to sleep after lunch, and you call yourself SLEEP-DEPRIVED!

13) YOU USE CAPITALIZATION, ONLY CUZ YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IT(OH SO MUCH TO BE CALLED SMART!), ANYWHERE AND EVERYWHERE!

14) You boast about something you havent even done, AND DON'T EVEN KNOW ABOUT!

15) You know you are jacked, but are hurt cuz one of your relatives called you a loser! how could he man?

16) You come up with a decent blog post about ABSOLUTELY NOTHING

17) You read this post and say smilingly, "oh damn! ya that happens 2 me too!"

If yes, felicitations! you're a certified insane now!

join the club! (well, there isn't one... but i m sure i wil have to open 1 soon cuz m going to get lot of lunatic and psychotic and neurotic....... (and d synonyms follow).... people around!

till then,

lazing off... cus u know, i am SLEEP DEPRIVED ;)

-Niyati!